Thread:TwistedAlpha/@comment-4910132-20140201073927

First off I'd like to say that I didn't go straight to Beyblade Wiki. . . I just clicked "Random" and it took me here. I just wanted somewhere where no snoopers would bother us.

That being said, here it is.

I am sorry, Brickmaster, truly I am. It was never my intention to hurt you, but I fully realise I did. You may say I don't know to what extent, but I have felt that before - a comment or remark that wasn't meant to hurt, but it truly was. It really hurt me, and I did cry. I cried myself to sleep. I'm not sure there's a human being on the planet over 10 years old that hasn't felt this kind of pain before.

I'm not trying to sympathize with you, because I know no matter what I said, it's still going to hurt. I'm not trying to remove the hurt because that's not possible. And if I'm making it worse that definately isn't my intention, so please, just hear me out for the remainder of this message.

BM I'm not here to take away your pain, and definately not here to instill more. I want you to know that I really, truly am sorry. This issue has troubled me ever since a few days ago when you said I was mocking you. Again, that wasn't my intention, but I realise it hurt, and for that I really want to appologize. I'm asking your forgiveness for the hurt I caused you, both then and up to now, and in the future.

See, I realise that it will continue to hurt. And that void you and I discussed? It won't ever go away, BM. When you find that perfect girl friend, that perfect career, that perfect wife, and have a family and a great life. . . believe it or not there will still be a void. That same void that makes you feel like ripping your heart out of your very chest and chucking it as far as you can into the sea.

So once more, I'm asking your forgiveness. I realise this is a hard thing to give, and you don't have to if you just cannot bring yourself to do so. So if you choose not to, please know this. I'm always here. Unless something happens to me, I'll be here for another several years. I'm always willing to talk seriously about anything, or talk silliness and just be silly.

Accepting an appology and giving forgiveness are two different things. When you accept an appology, you're acknowledging that the other party has acknowledged that they themselves have made a mistake. Forgiveness is a step harder. Forgiveness is a heart matter, and it must be sincere to be real and true. It's like I explained - you're willing to try to treat someone as if whatever had happened had never happened. It isn't easy, and it really never does. It may through your actions but not your heart and soul. But for forgiveness to work, you must be willing to try.

I'm asking for both. I leave it for you to decide. If you aren't ready to grant forgiveness, then I accept that. As for the appology, this was it. I thank you for taking the time to read through it all. Once again, I really am sorry.

Thanks, Peat 